Six months since I set up a blog site … almost in self defiance – challenging myself to write despite the fact that I was just about to give up the idyllic life and re-enter the commercial world. It was perhaps a way of putting up a sign post, a land mark, making a promise to myself that I would return to write.
I knew I would be busy in the months ahead with a newly formed tour company promoting our fair isle Sri Lanka. My task was to put in place the financial systems and strategies and move on. But I find myself wanting to help visitors truly enjoy the sights, sounds and wondrous beauty of Sri Lanka; to give them the time of their lives in the time available to them at an affordable price. But that takes research and ‘work’ .
The problem is I did not want to really go back to work. I want to read and write. Perhaps I can compromise with a travel blog? I don’t know. Let me think about that.
I do know that incidents in the past week have tuned me into the frailty of life. The sands of time are running out. I have not yet become the person I want to be. As R. L. Stevenson said “To be what you are and to become what you are capable of becoming is the only end of life’.
It sometimes feels like I have barely started the journey. I have not yet become everything I want to be. I have not yet been molded into The Son, but still wander far from Him .. and from those whom I should be helping. He has given me a grace period this past week – to be with aging elders who may have been taken away if I had not pleaded for time. So how do I use it – not just this time given to me but the rest of my life? How do I balance all the many many things I want to do? ..
I need to turn to The Son .. to get my bearings and direction from him. The Hand that guides the Universal Clock will surely help me to make every minute count if I turn to Him for He must know that this wayward one only wants to be in Him. roX – Rosanne in Christ.